30 years old and single

Man the last year has been a fight.  I have changed my childish ways, turned around my life, met the perfect woman, been stolen from, made to felt guilty about it.  I have found a family, and come closer with my own.  I have been turned into a father figure and have had to decide whether I will keep it up for the sake of children and sacrifice for them.  My life is changing so much.  I was so excited about cloverfield, but have been so tied up in my new life.......or old life......that I forgot about this blog.......even didn't see the movie until it came out on DVD.  I know that starting a family and living out the story book is something that was once really important to me, but after this relationship, I am very freaking scared of opening up and letting anyone in.